Hello. My name is Sarah and I am a person in long term recovery. Like so many others my fall into addiction came fast and knocked me down. Struggling with many medical issues just perpetuated my downfall. I was a single mom who wanted to go out and get high. I would leave my daughter in the middle of the night to go get dope. I had stolen about $10,000 from the one person who would do anything to help me, my mom. As she watched me fall further and further down the rabbit hole, she watched the woman she knew as her daughter become a shell. My mom took my daughter and said she would keep her safe, a job I was meant to do. I was out stealing from people, places, and getting high was all I eventually began to care about. I got pregnant and was sleeping in my car, I was thrown from my vehicle when I was still pregnant, continued to stay in an abusive relationship because I had no other choices, and I continuing on the destructive path I paved. After I had my baby, I continued using. I would have her in and out of the car 24 hours a day and barely made time to see my oldest daughter let alone properly take care of my youngest.
Then the last shoe dropped. I had taken more money from my mom. She looked at me and said you will go to treatment or you will go to jail and you will lose your daughters. I could have been facing 10 federal felony charges.
On August 12, 2019, I entered residential treatment. I was completely unprepared for the change that came to follow. Addiction tore every last bit of hope and faith I had. I did not want to live. Recovery did the one thing I never thought possible, it gave me something I knew to be dead inside me. It gave me hope. It restored a woman I had not seen in many years. I was able to learn coping strategies I was greatly lacking in. I learned how to control my anger, heal from the trauma I endured in active addiction, and how to be a better person and mother. I wish I could say it was the easiest thing I ever did, but it wasn’t. I have to work at it every day. When I was in treatment, I heard a phrase which really hit home for me, “The opposite of addiction is not sobriety. It is connection.” I finally understood so many of these life skills residential treatment gave me to help me through my journey. I completed residential treatment in 11 months. Upon graduating, I went straight into Outpatient treatment to keep me accountable for all the success I was ready for. After 16 weeks in IOP, I completed out patient treatment and began my new life.
I received my Chemical Dependency Counselor Technician certification, am currently working on my CDC I certification, and I am finally in a career where I can help others through their journey with tools I have learned. Remember, only you can make the choice to change, but you cannot do it alone. Two years in recovery, and I have never been happier or more successful.
I hope to be an inspiration to others as my peers and my treatment team were for me!