My name is Amy and I’m a person in long term recovery. What that means to me is I have not found any reason suitable to pick up a drug or drink since December 15, 2013.
I remember the last day that I used like it was yesterday simply because I never want to forget where I came from. I was stuck in a bathroom, using against my will, crying and praying for help. During that conversation with my HP, I decided that if I couldn’t get into treatment by December 31st, I would end my life. Over the course of the next couple of weeks, I made a plan to kill myself, wrote letters to my children and prepared myself for that day.
Fortunately, my HP saw fit for me to get into treatment on December 31st and I am here to tell my story. My recovery has been anything but pretty. The only thing I’ve done perfectly is not use. I attend meetings, have a sponsor and do stepwork. I hold service positions, am a mother to my children, am an accountable employee, am a full time college student and show up for others today.
I had a dream when I first got clean to become a Substance Use Counselor but found that my criminal background would stand in the way of that. I’m here to tell you, ANYTHING is possible. People in recovery have fought battles some will never understand and we’re so strong because of it.
The work I do every day is not work at all. I am blessed to walk beside people reaching out for help and supervise an amazing team of individuals who share the same vision to help our people succeed in recovery. I always say that if I’d settled for what I thought I deserved, even in early recovery, I would have sold myself short.
The lie is dead, we DO recover. If you need help, please feel free to reach out on this page or to the peer hotline at (907) 793-3646. We’re here for you!